My greatest fear is that I will not have done enough for my children emotionally and spiritually. I don’t know if they REALLY know I love them. More importantly, actually, I know they know right now because they randomly thank me for how their dad and I love them. But will they always know it? Will they realise that everything we do is for their best? Will they know that we have sacrificed our (selfish) happiness sometimes, so that they can experience true eternal joy? Will the understand that our every breath and thought (when it comes to them) is about their benefit?
Am I spending enough time with them? Am I spending enough quality time with them? Do I know them well? Will they know they can come to with every problem and that I will never get angry with them no matter how disappointed I may feel? If my daughter were to fall pregnant, would she come tell me or would she hide it and do something unmentionable like trying to flush the baby down the toilet or dumping it in the veld? Would my son come and tell me if the world ever drew him in and he started struggling with temptation? Or would they merrily forget everything we have taught them? Will they remember our hugs and giggles and singing and praying and know that if they were to stray, they could return and have those times again? Or would they drift further and further away? Will they cherish the moments we’ve had and think of them fondly?
Am I doing everything I can to show them God’s love? Do they see Him as a loving Father who wants to spend eternity with them? When my son is on on his own, reading his Bible and mission books, is he yearning to be with the God who inspired the authors? When my daughter asks to spend time with me, when she can’t wait for her dad to come home, does it give me a glimpse of how she will desire to spend time with her Father in heaven? Are they loving and caring for others the same way Jesus cares for us. Do they see our love for others and does it inspire the same love in them?
My greatest fear is that I will miss something. That God will say, “But you knew, why could you not ask me to teach you how to do it? Why didn’t you come to Me for strength and ability?” My greatest fear is to never hear my Saviour say, “Well done, good and faithful servant, you have brought my precious lambs with you, enter thou into the joy of the Lord.”